Jellycat

ice ice

Thu, 24 Dec 2009 00:10:17 GMT

went to the pub with Kristy and Hayley, was okkkkk.
had a rum and coke and just chatted the night away.
it is hard to tell if people bitch about you, im still not sure =/
but Mike was saying how nice i dressed, which was nice :)
i miss Ben, seeing him on webcam being... him makes me happy.

a new little bit of happy in me

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 16:29:45 GMT

well, i am ok now :)
i read what i did last christmas and it made me feel better.
i have been out quite a bit recently so a couple of days in won't hurt.
fingers crossed i can see Ben christmas day, that would be lovely.

hmph

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 14:29:42 GMT

well it is raining and cold :( never good.
my mum won't let me drive down to Chard to see peoples.
she probably won't let me drive to Weston for Maisie's christmas party.
plus i don't know if i want to go to Chaplins for this mask get together.. too cold and im feeling lazy.
im pretty annoyed because i can't go anywhere because of stupid weather.
so everyone will be off with me because im feeling crappy.
anyway..
was my last day at college on monday, had to leave at about 12.30 so had the rest of the day for lovely things.
went back to Ben's for L4D2 playing which i am still a bit rusty at =/ then Ben's brother came round and he brought a sega xbox game which was great, so bad but great!
they then went out for a bit so me and Ben's mum wrapped up her pressies :)
the next day we woke up from a phone call from David saying it was snowing, had tea in bed from Ben then made cheese on toast :D later on we started thinking about making something for the christmas party Ben is going to today, went to the shop to get marshmallows but didn't use them =/ then decided to make the gingerbread house which went wrong beyond belief. so in a last minute rush i decided we should crush up the gingerbread house (RIP) and make a base for some angel delight to go on, sprinkle the rest of the crumbs on and WALLA we have something ^_^ failure pie.
hope it goes down well!
slept over Kristy's house last night with Hayley too, went to asda for some treats :D then played brawl, watched the snowman, took too many photos and listened to the music channels XD GOT PRESENTS TOO!
so my day will consist of sewing and wrapping presents, lovely =/

SUPER SUPER WANTS!

Sun, 20 Dec 2009 11:56:23 GMT

fabulous shoesies

Sun, 20 Dec 2009 11:44:31 GMT

super wants

penguins are on my mind

Sun, 20 Dec 2009 11:40:59 GMT

picked Ben up from work yesterday and went straight to Cribbs with lots of cash in our pockets. late night shopping is the best!
got pretty much everyones presents now so yet another weight off my shoulders, had yum yum kfc after which was huge but we were HUN-ER-YYYY. we then went to toys r us and yes, awesome times.
then went back to Ben's house for new magic deck playing and azumanga daioh watching, Ben fell asleep but i can't complain i guess because it was a long day.
going out for a meal with family soonish, well my aunty, uncle and cousin can't make it because of heavy snow but hey.

Writer's Block: Simply wonderful

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 16:35:11 GMT

chocolate and knowing other people are happy which makes me happy.

cute!

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 15:37:40 GMT

new background :)
im too excited about New York! yesterdays talk just got me jumping for joy.

not much happening

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 15:03:38 GMT

well, not long til christmas now.. :)
getting a little more excited but not how i used to be, back in the day.
went to garden world today with my mum to look at the christmas stuff, got a few more pressies but the display was not as good as last year :(
finished UCAS on tuesday! a big weight off my shoulders.
went into town with Dawn on wednesday to get some sweets for peoples, then met up with Ben at his work and he then came to stay at mine, was a nice evening :) he has also finished his UCAS so i am pleased for him. we went for a rain walk with the big umbrella and ate bacon crisps whilst watching azumanga daioh, all warm and cosy :)
the next night was the same but i stayed at his house because we were going to see his friend Alistair with Dawn too. it was fun, we played different forms of magic all night, however towards the end i got very tired and cold. i was shy, i know that but i hardly spoke at all when 12 ticked by.. i felt a bit rude when it was time to go as i didn't say anything, wasn't like me to not say bye. so yeah... got back to Ben's and he comforted me as i got upset about how i was. i hope im not hated :( we then woke up late today so i didn't go into college because there was nothing to do, hope Dawn was okays.

eep

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 17:53:01 GMT

christmas party on saturday with Maisie and her family :) was super duper fun!
took me a little while to not be too shy but maybe that was the alcohol kicking in.
then slept over Ben's for the night, didn't sleep that well because of womens problems and the fact i kept hearing noises :(
got up very late to see Dawn looking at us XD then went home a little earlier than planned because i needed medicine.
was off college today because of the same problem and i will probably be very behind.

christmas party shot!

yes yes yes!

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 18:49:19 GMT

started my new photomedia project which is fab.
on tuesday i went to the clothes show with Kristy and Hayley, Aimee, Charlotte and Vicky also came along but just chatted on the bus journey.
the whole thing was just as good as last years which i wasn't expecting! the shopping was great and so was the show.
things i bought..
two tops for Kirsty and Hayley for christmas - altogether £10.00
necklace and belt for them both again - altogether £10.50
two dresses from the same stall - altogether £10.00
three softies - altogether £10.00
ANOTHER dress! - £5.00
doesn't seem much however they both got my christmas presents too which i can't wait to get!
so yeah, awesome day :D
wednesday was spent working and playing lots of magic, then went into town with Ben and James. Ben then came back to mine for some photo taking, magic playing fun :)
film night yesterday with Kristy and Hayley.
all i need to do now is do some artist research, finish my film off and do some more christmas shopping.
please make it go away..im so worried

little bit nervous

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 12:43:07 GMT

as i have decided that i am going to visit sea breeze and see if they would sell the things i make. for one i will probably end up not going there because i am a wimp and two i will cock up when it comes to speaking =/ lovely.
i guess the worst they can say is no.. eek.

ooooh

Fri, 04 Dec 2009 16:58:37 GMT

car was fixed on wednesday, i am now back on the road XD
my ema should be ok, might get it a bit late but should all be back dated, yes!
and... when Ben came over on wednesday we went into town, he found me a owl toy in the charity shop and i also found a penguin which makes noise! too cute. so i have them both and become addicted to making Ben press me so i make noise :) super fun!

my brithday cards have been taken down :(

Fri, 04 Dec 2009 16:54:17 GMT

sad face.
Hayley and Kristy came round last night, did the norm of brawl and film :) and yums yums.
Ben rang me when the film was coming to the good bit.. eesh. wasn't good news and it sort of sparked off over things later that evening.
i felt no emotion til i went to bed, just couldn't sleep because i was thinking about everything too much. which then meant in the morning i woke up late =/
got my pill from boots and im hoping i havn't taken it a day late, if so eek eek.
my emotions came out when i got to college, however Ben did make things better. i do hope things don't change anymore, i don't want hassle after everything. i want to be settled.
Ben gave me a few new magic cards and we later played with David and Ollie, guess who won... ME! yay!
then went to finish off my wall hanging, i still don't think it is done but hey, have to see what happens on monday i guess. Ben kept visiting me which was nice, felt like nothing had ever happened :)
i hope Meg is going to be ok..

gots me cooking mama 3!

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 17:44:23 GMT

yay.
i am just worried about my ema... i have a feeling i havn't got it then when i do apply again i won't get hardly any money :(

i am okays now :)

Tue, 01 Dec 2009 18:12:09 GMT

college on monday which was hmmmish. it started fine as i saw sewing some samples but then i had to go and put the embroidery foot on and stab it through my finger =/ luckily it didn't hit the bone but even so... it was still painfull. i made a mess everywhere and i nearly passed out. i got it sorted out by Andy and i had to lie on a teacher for a bit as i was felling a bit fuzzy. i talked to Alex for a bit after and then within the hour i was back to sewing again :) i am a true machinist now!
hopefully by next week i will have a table to do my sewing and work on, i am excited! i can have my own personal space which i have always wanted. get this room sorted out a bit, going to look awesome.
the start of today was pretty bad as i had life drawing =/ hates it but it was my last lesson :) i did a terrible job and when Steve came to help out he made it even worse! silly. so that 2 hours was wasted and then we had a talk after for an hour which was the same as yesterday. so by the time i did do some work it was about 3, gahh.
=/
silly car is STILL not fixed. full stop.
i hope i don't feel hate coming on, don't ask me for advice! i suck.

birthday weekend is over :(

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 17:54:09 GMT

went to asda on the friday to get drinks and sweets :)
then got ready at my house so we could go to have a meal which was nice, the place was a bit cold but hey.
had a few drinks at mine then went into town even though it was dead =/ met Mike in chaplins for some more drinks, yum to rum! a drunk guy really liked Hayely but she didn't like him, so we quickly moved onto Kirsty's sisters house. she was having a party so we kind of joined it too. played brawl then a random ball game with yet more drinks. then went back to mine for drinks and cherries! so yay to that.
went to Chard the next day but my car broke down so that wasted a good 2 hours :( i couldn't have a proper sit down chat with Lizzy which was very annoying :(
however i did get dropped off and i met up with Emma, Emma and James for some ben and jerries eating in his car, lots of fun i must say!
got dropped off at my nan and grandads so i could see them and do some college word, Lizzy dropped my present off then at 8 my dad picked me up so i could stay at his for the night.
so today was another celebrating day, my nan, grandad, dad, Sue, Lilly, Emma, Arch and Jean came round for some eating and chatting, was very nice :) i then got dropped off home and i feel a bit sad because i miss everyone so much...

i am 18!

Fri, 27 Nov 2009 17:02:50 GMT

yay!
nice day today :)
got awesome presents! one of them being a red old fashioned phone :D loves to the max.
David got me my cardboard life comics which are ace. i also had lots of other lovely things which will be treasured forever :)
going out with Hyaley and Kirsty for a meal later and also going to asda, better get my id card out! wants to buy cooking mama 3 also.
i will spend the weekend with my friends and family so should be lots of fun.
yum yum yum.

fun week

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 18:28:31 GMT

had a very busy weekend in London which i must say was ace :D
got the coach and arrived in London about miday, found the hotel which was a little confusing and then explored. we went on the tube to Oxford Circus which was insane in good and bad ways.
1. it was very busy even though it was the evening and
2. there was too many women's clothes shops XD
however i loved the christmas lights and the general atmosphere was great!
had a lovely pizza each to eat and some lemon icecream and mint tea for afters.
got back to the hotel about 9 and listened to our new polysics album which we found in hmv, ahh!
i also bought hello kitty stickers, cinnamoroll keyring and some Japanese sweets. i bought Ben a moomins tin and sweets and i had some random but very nice chewy sweets. i LOVED China town :)
came back for another nibble then went to sleep.
the next day we went to the natural history museum which was awesome! then walked along the embankment where we had lunch. i also bought a felt flower hat and a sock bunny :) so sweet!
we then made a quick dash back to Oxford Circus where i wanted to buy amazing things. i got a totoro toy, moomins figures and a mini moustache :D
then went back on the tube to our hotel and dashed back to the coach.
we had a very lovely trip back, we just enjoyed each others company and to be honest i think things are better because of it.
had film night on moday with Kristy and Hayley and watched the mask then i stayed round Ben's on tuesday and wednesday night as his parents had gone on holiday.
overall i have had a good week so far :)
today was was fun even though i had a hideous mood swing in the morning =/ me and Emma went on a hunt for fabrics and stole lots for us XD i gots me a dress and scarf. Ben was pretending he was the jocky and jumped on my back so i fell over :( was funny thinking about it now although i did ask for it as he said if i wanted to play L4D2 which i said yes to.
ooh, me and Ben had been together a whole year last tuesday :D
yay for my birthday tomorrow! the BIG 18!

patterns

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 19:49:22 GMT

today was pretty nice.
did quite a bit of fine art work which i am actually happy with and had ceramics in the afernoon. i made a slab of random patterns put onto each other, doesn't look like anything but that was what i was going for.
i am slightly disturbed by elephants on acid and other bizarre experiments, i was sitting there like this :o but with my hand over my mouth and had to tell Oli and Jack which was probably not the right thing to do as it involved cutting a penis and burning it, a vacuum sucking out a baby from the vagina and a mother monkey eating it's dead baby. i love the fact it said at the end.. and it ate it's lips, like it HAD to be said!
d'aww, Emma is very sweet, she always has a smile on her face :)
only 1000 more words to go with this freaking essay! gah.
and... i am in love with my cute little sketchbook <3 sad but true.

If you're small and on a search I've got a feeder for you to perch on.

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 14:12:32 GMT

lets just say i feel like im getting into this project.
need to eat and need to do an essay :)

carnival AGAIN!

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 16:39:11 GMT

although it was the same as Burnham, was expected. so it wasn't that great but we found Lizzy and Rob so that was nice :) and then slept at Ben's for the night.
i got a R on my project, Anna really like it but she just wanted me to do some more/better illustrations but she knows i struggle with them. i will probably take a picture of my face and trace it, add different materials to it and hopefully that will be ok.
my plan is to..
do this on friday
do my essay on wednesday, thursday and some of friday
do my personal statement today.
left college a bit early as i couldn't do anything because i had no sketchbook, photocopy card and student id, i hope he wasn't mad =/
i hope Ben perks up.

out and about

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 17:10:33 GMT

went to see the fantastic mr fox after college with Ben, David, Maisie and Phil, it was so awesome :D
film night with Hayley and Kristy just after, the norm of brawl and film, obviously!
finished my hat on saturday and i am very pleased with it, wayyyy over the top and completely crazy but hey.
pretty good night last night :) went out for Ollies 21st and saw peoples. DB'S!
Ben's house today and had a massive tidy up session, just very tired now.
im not weak :)

EEP

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 16:50:21 GMT

had Ben time last night and yum yum chinese food even though i had tones of noodles!
i seem happier today, i also feel less ill even though i have my horrible cough :(

no zzz for me

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 00:03:03 GMT

and i just can't sleep even though i feel urgh.
been listening to Only You by Yazoo, whatever mood i am in this song makes me cry.
i feel i have been neglecting peoples lj's, i will catch up on everything, if it is the last thing i do :)
you guys have helped me with my problems and i want to help you with yours.